Ever since my 20s I have been on a self help path, sometimes it would feel urgent. For example, I would see a book and I had to have it immediately even though I had 6 books in my bookcase that I still have not read. I would think that this is going to be the book that makes everything better; this is going to be the book that brings me answers and peace. I would read the back and the reviews and then bring it up to the counter with this excitement and anticipation. Then I get home, and do I start the book? No. I put it on my bookcase. Then the cycle repeats itself again months later. I buy another self help book and I think this is the one, and it goes on the shelf. I have read so many self help books and many have helped me; however, after a while you realize they are all starting to sound the same. They have the same messages and sometimes the same words. But I still have this part of me that thinks this one is different and maybe I can get some nuggets of information to help me in my life. I am proud to say I am currently on a self help break.
Not only was I buying books, but with today’s technology I was watching TED videos and you tube videos and going to events, like Deepak Chopra. To be honest, the event was not helpful and it was confusing. I did get to meet Deepak for a second. In addition, I was receiving a weekly email tip from Gabby Bernstain, who I love, and I looked forward to those emails. Danielle LaPorte is a really cool spiritual guide, and I bought her guide to mapping out your life based on your desires and how you want to feel. I bought it months ago and got a quarter of the way into it and stopped. Then I bought this book called Get Your Shit Together and I started that. Then one magical day I happen to come across a video of Danielle saying she was on an input fast. An input fast is about stopping to look for answers outside yourself, and starting to look for answers within yourself. This intrigued me. It meant no self help books, no TED videos, no super soul Sunday, no you tube videos, no reiki healing, no psychic sessions, no going to spiritual guru events, no scheduled email tips, and no more reaching for external help. I put away my self help books; I stopped Gabby’s emails; I stopped watching super soul Sunday and any self help videos. For the first time in a long time, I am reading a novel and loving it! I wasn’t sure how an input fast would make me feel. Would I feel lost? Would I feel that something is missing? Would I be missing out on helpful information?
I am only 2 weeks into my input fast, and I feel incredible. I feel lighter and calmer. I like not having all this “stuff” coming at me from all directions. Also, I feel stronger and more confident in my abilities to be my own guru. It feels satisfying to reach inside myself and know that I am in control of the trajectory of my life. I’m not sure how long this input fast will last, probably a few months or several months. It will be interesting to see if and how I return to letting input back into my life. For now, I feel free and I even think perhaps that it’s not necessary to live that way; it may even be harmful.
I always thought I needed the external input to live my best life and to be my best self, and now I know that is not true. I am the expert on me.
Be your own guru!!